我 ...

科蔚
是我的名字
而我
从来都不知道这个名字的含意...

想了很久
还是不知道，它的意思
科？ 常常在想为什么是这个科？不是可？
而蔚？为什么不是维？？尉？薇？？

在你“走”的那一天，
我还是没有开口问取
你离开了，所已，这将会是一个谜
永远。。。

你，已经不在了
但，这个名字就好像是你，
还存在着的你


我最至爱的公公，
谢谢你给我这个名字
让我觉得，
我
与众不同　

解玲还需系玲人

那天，和一个很久没见的朋有喝茶

----志华 ~

我，被发现
得了严重的病...........

与他谈天后，他分析了
我，一直在乎的， 是人？还是所谓的“认同”？
我不清楚
但，如果真的是"认同"
那。。 我的病已经到达了我也想像不到的节段.......
很严重，很严重。。
解玲还需系玲人。。

因为"你"，我变了，从 （-）到 (+)
是不是还需要你的帮助，我才能从 (+) 变 (neutral)
对你，是遗憾。。 深深的 ~
但，还是谢谢你， 谢谢你让我成长了，
诚心祝福你
很好，很好...

小青蛙 =="'

无缘无故的，我变成了"小青蛙" .. :'( :'( :'(

小青蛙好奇问题一 :
为什么鸡会生出那么容易破的蛋啊？

小青蛙好奇想法 :
为什么孵的蛋一定会有小鸡出来啊？
那如果人类去孵，会有蛋出来吗?
鸡也不算廋啊，那么重孵蛋，蛋不会破吗？~ :P

与海底生物啃书
小青蛙好奇问题二 :
海底生物啊,
把 net income (+) 了原有的retained earnings 在 ( 一) dividends,
新的retained earnings, 还会是 asset = liabilites + shockholder's equity 吗？
海底生物毫不犹豫的说：“对啊”！
算了几分钟 ~
啊，真得能够 balance 哦 ！！
突然大喊
"account 好神奇哦" ~ :D

永远的唯一

27 of June ..........
不敢去回想的我，还是鼓起勇气写下......
你， 离开了...到了一个我还陌生的地方........
收到消息后的我们，赶回来了.....
给你上了香 ，去探望在一旁坐着的公公.........
握着他的手，瞬间好心疼他! 岁月的折腾，事实的残酷，那些痕迹一一浮现在他老人家的身上，比谁都难过的他，还是默默的承受 ，我在旁边却也不知道该说什么才好，握着你的手 ，眼泪很冲忙得流下了...突然觉得好无助，好无助....我什么话也没说, 只是一直一直握着你的手，希望手心的温度可以温软到你的心，让一切不在那么疼痛.......
想坚强点的我，每当想到以后的你，会一个人过，一个人走，一个人看电戏，生活中少了一个她，你还能习惯吗？想到这，眼泪还是很不正气的再流下.....

29 of June

在拜祭你的时候， 回忆起以前我的调皮 ，生病时你的照顾，真的好不想失去你。。。
以后再也看不到你，想念你的时候该怎么办？？？！！！！！！
婆， 不要离开好吗？我真的很想念你....
忘了有多久了，应该有三，四年没听到你的声音，没看到你的笑容.....
眼泪再次掉下了............
拜祭你时嗑着头的那三拜，另一个自己仿佛骗着我，只要我嗑的再用力点，你就会回来.................
努力的把头嗑得很用力，听见的只是头与地上的触碰声...瞬间也想不起痛的感觉....在次接二连三听到的是自己的心碎的声音...........!!!!
在棺材前哭着告诉你心里的最后一句话: "这辈子真的 很开心可以成为你的孙女，下辈子，如果真的还有下辈子，我还是想成为你的孙女"......!!!
婆，你的笑容，会时时刻刻浮现在我的脑海里.....
永远，永远.........

PANTAI hospital , Melaka

17th, wed..woke up in the early of morning,
headache ~ headache.. No energy to wake up, laying on bed.......
when i see the time again, OMG.. i gonna late, 12 pm i need to attend for class :(
after attending for class, argh... hate!!!
went to MMU , FBL bulding again.. change course, change course
pls change for me pls ~ i wan Banking & Finance...
i have been waiting for 3 months le.. :(
haiz... followed all the procedures and instructions, but still failed to get that course, is that really too much peoples taking that course...?? haiz.. i dont knw.. :(
Felt not comfortable that day, after all, went back to Ixora Apartment there, i slept ...
see my timetable again. 8pm having another class.. WHAT?? nite also having class..:(
when the lecturer was teaching, i headache again, felt so suffer..
sms for my brother, asked him to bring me to see doctor...
PANTAI HOSPITAL? OMG.. am i so serious? need go till HOSPITAL?
can i go clinic? Need any injections? how? will that pain?
i start wondering? or i get any infection? H1N1? Brain tumour???
hees.. Fortunately, just a normal fever.. =.=
after seeing the doctor, the clock was showed as 11pm?...
OMg..he gonna LATE !!! MFA had set a rule, he need to back there before 11 pm?
After, he went back in rush...
lastly.............eh........... eh.............eh....
i also dont knw the consequences he faced when he back to MFA wor..hees.......
anyway,thanks ya brother... thanks for everything.... :)

The day you went away ~~!!!!

14th Of June, reached Melaka that day as 15th of June, my campus gonna to reopen :(
when entered my room, OMG.. everything had changed~~
my lovely roomates, xiu phai, leave me le.. :(
wont see her at A 1107 anymore ...
start wondering, how to change all the my habit in a sudden?how to start a new life with another roomate?? OMG ~ can anyone teaches me?
last time, i used to tell her my avthings, avday before our bed time, i would say, xiu phai, xiu phai , xiu phai...

although sometimes i dont have anything interesting things to share with her,
but just felt like wanna keep calling her name..:$
i still remember, one day , i felt very hungy.. my stomach keep calling me..:(
then she suddenly cooked a hot dishes , and she was willing to share with me ..
suddenly felt so touch.. really , thx ~
we had a lots of sweet memory, a lots and lots.....
we always chat, play around, flight, pulling each others hair, studied together, gave each others questions, during midnite, when i was hungry, she accompanied me came down to buy burger...
day by day, could not accept that she going to shift to cyber, MMU soon...
not dare to court the day...
Eventually, that day reached, she packed all her things, until her cousins came and fetch her , only i know nothing can be avoid...
i hug her and cried........
Xiu phai, a strong girl , a girl that i believed that although without any ppl helping her, she still can stand up confidiently's girl..
A 1107 always open for u ...
i still waiting, dreaming and hoping
one day
when i open my room ,will see u in the room and smiling to me and avthing can remain the same......................